Tonight

Yes, another sleepless night.
LOL! I am having insomnia which
even me, myself can't believe it.
Nah! I was lying. Haha.
I had this problem since don't know when. =P

Chye Hong is really an inspiration for me,
what she said enlightened me
about what is really happening,
and I should just, let my brain to have a rest!
That halloween is driving us crazy,
then assignments, then test, then lab, then final.
Oh my god, when will this thing end?!

I was pretty enjoying while organizing this Halloween.
Like Rahmah,
I don't think money takes prority in this event,
what we want is not just about profitable activities
but the whole experience about organizing this event.
It is quite a big event though,
we decided to have it in main campus this year,
so is rather grand and of course hectic.
We are working together with ICPU and Miraz
which is another precious chance and experience!

I admit that I was not taking initiative at the beginning,
as my mood was really affected and
I lost the passion in organizing events since I left high school.
I want to thank Rahmah,
she knows me so well that she assigned me to be the Treasurer
with Aqilah and Alvin Teh to bring my passion back.
I want to thank Rick,
we spent most of the nights at his house
for the fundraising activity,
and also editting some parts of the proposal.
They are two main organizing chairperson who I am impressed the most!
Well, they are too nice to do everything by their own,
so, I don't know whether is a good thing or not. =)
I want to thank Chye Hong too,
thanks for being their when I need ears. Haha!

Piece of words to God:
I was embraced by your greatness,
thank you for being there always deep in my heart core
to always make me feel reassured whenever I need You.
Thank you for being there always deep in my brain stem
to always make me feel rational whenever I am reckless.
God, you are so wonderful that I will never give up
from believing in You.
I still need Your guide and effort to pull me through,
I know You are always ready to give me a slight pull
whenever I choose to stand on the ground stiff and
procrastinate to move forward.
God, I love You!
Latest wish of mine,
Please help us out in the Halloween to make it great.
Please help me out to contribute in this event.
Please help me out by putting out my disappointment.

Tagged

遊戲規則.
回答下列問題.
貼到自己的網誌.
寫完後.自己加一個問題然後傳給10個人.
可以點.點過的人.
被你點到的人你要去跟他說.
我點到你了
寫完後去跟點到你的人說.
我寫完了
不可以不寫喔.不寫幸福就會跑掉喔.
。。。

我的大名：吴子俊
我的生日：17/9
誰傳給你的：蔡婉玉
說出五個好朋友：真的太多了啦！
生日想要什麽禮物：只要大家在一起陪我庆祝就好了。
近期開心的是：昨天晚上。
近期壓力的是：课业，感情
未來想做什麽：我最好和成功的自己，
有沒有喜歡的人：我的好朋友们咯！
同學會要回去找老師嗎：老师应该不会记得我
跟誰出去最幸福：家人，Kluang Gang，Subang Gang
如果你的兩個好友吵架了：还小啊？慢慢讲可以吗？
跟情人出去最想去哪：只要是在一起，哪都可以。
聖誕節要做啥：庆祝啦！
最想和誰過聖誕節：我的好朋友们，可能未来的伴侣。
有沒有起床氣：偶尔。
有幾個兄弟姐妹：1个妹妹
最喜歡的一首歌（女生）：真实
最喜歡的一首歌（男生）：4 seasons of loneliness
喜歡什麽顔色：蓝
上厠所會不會先沖水：说真的，我没这个习惯。
愛不愛我：你说呢？
最想大聲說什麽：朋友们，你们很棒！
半夜敢不敢上厠所：敢啊！
上厠所會不會脫褲褲：小便的话不用吧！
誰很？欠打：我咯。=.=
現在很迷什麽：和朋友疯狂的日子。
睡相很差：应该不会啦！哈哈！
現在的時間：8.27p.m
是否痛恨傳給你點卷的人: 不会啊！
體重多少：63KG
今天天氣：有一点热。
你懷孕了嗎：我想啊，但是不可能！=.=
你若中樂透最想做什麽：那要看我中多少。
大學生一定要玩的遊戲：True or Dare?
如果能為彩虹添加一種顔色你選：我喜欢现在的颜色。
你相信愛情會永遠嗎：没这个可能。
現在你穿什麽顔色的衣服：青色。
童年回憶快樂嗎：小学不好，中学超棒。
現在想死嗎：白痴咩？我的生活很好啊！
你快乐吗：至少我还会笑咯！哈哈哈！

择偶条件：感觉最重要。

生命中最重要的是：珍惜，感恩。
【點名人物】
1.Wee Chuan

2. Woen Nee

3. Rainbow Liew

4. Sze Qi

5. Ee Lian

6. Wei Jiann

7. Momoko

8. Fun Liang

9. Eva

10. Feon
④號認識⑥號嗎: 懂彼此是谁。
⑩號是男還是女： 女的
①號有沒有兄弟姐妹： 有
⑦號姓氏：刘
⑩號人緣好嗎：好！
④號有人追嗎：我不知道耶！
⑥號喜歡的顏色是：冷系列颜色
③號和⑩號是朋友嗎：不算是
⑧號的生日是：13/6
你怎麼認識⑩號的：College

你跟①號的生日差幾個月：7个月
和⑨號有出去玩過嗎：没有
你喜歡①號聊天嗎：还不错！
你喜歡和③號在一起嗎：跟他在一起很舒服啊！哈哈！

Run

It used to be referred to Leona Lewis' song,
but then now, it doesn't anymore.

I had a feeling of running away from everything,
I feel like going to US soon.
As I had too much burdens in here for me to share.
So? I can't.
Supposedly, I will leave to US in January,
but my parents didn't allow me to do so,
my mum called and asked me whether I can stay
longer or not? Probably after the Chinese New Year.
Secondly, my mum claimed that she could not get the bank letter.
And the biggest reason among all is,
Malaysia is way too good for me to leave.
I have my familar Kluang gang here,
and my closest Subang gang here,
and my dearest family here.
I really can't bring myself to leave here so soon.

Is it so hard to differentiate
emo post and enlightened post in my blog?
My previous post is not really emo,
but it was a post that "I woke up!"
I appreciate all of your caring,
but then, for those who did not,
I mean indirectly caring, so sorry, I just don't get it!

People in this world are just strange,
they wanted to get news from other people
rather than use your mouth to ask that person directly.
I agree that I'm doing the same thing too,
but, to remind you, everything has it's boundary.
When you cross it, things will be as awful as it can be.
I'm seriously annoyed in this case, I really am!

I used up all my benevolent heart toward this,
I'm totally exhausted!
Is this my problem again? I don't think so.
Should I just be as stupid as I can,
or be secretive as I can?
I am really speechless for the past few minutes,
thinking of what to type in this blog.

Lastly,
please don't do anything behind me secretly,
I don't like it,
and seriously, I will get very angry when I know it.
Especially when it is supposed to be revealed.

P/S: Sometimes, a simple thank you will do
rather than playing around with your fake stupidity.
HYPOCRITE!

不老实与坚强

人生十之八九都是不顺利，
这是妈妈教的。
人生就是从十之八九中
学习成长。
这也是妈妈教的。

我不再害怕，
原来心里面还有更宽阔的心态去面对一切，
更期待更好的明天会到来。
不再选择不老实地面对自己的心态，
也不再选择不老实地做自己不想做的事情。
现在站出来看看自己，
才发现，原来被捆绑的不是另外一方，
而是我自己。
原来对方早就飞得很远，飞得很高，
而自己只是关在笼子里，羡慕着。

我坦诚地说，有很多事情我很介意，
但是我选择了不老实和懦弱。
三个星期前才发现一句话的真谛，
“逃避不一定最懦弱，
但是面对不一定最痛苦。”
我们彼此都犯下了错，
所以，我必须郑重的也跟你倒个歉，
对不起。

三个星期前的我，就像是一支草，
虽然坚强，但是还是会被人压在脚下踩，
但是现在的我，选择了茁壮成长。
或许就像你口里的暗疮一样，
撒一撒盐会很痛，但是却是最见效的方法。
我要谢谢你对我的好，
你的好或许是这世上无法代替的，
但是我相信另一个人会更值得你的好。
我要谢谢你的坏，
你的坏或许是这世上最坏的，
但是我知道，我不是一个人承担着。

从各个角度来看，
我真的学会了很多，
婉玉和你都和我说过同一句话，
在现实的情字里，永远没有童话故事里的鲜艳。
这点，我一直怀疑，也一直不肯承认。
因为我对爱情的憧憬很大，
我总希望爱情是完美的，所以我就把它想成那样。
同样的，亲情和友情也是一样。
现在，我学会承受瑕疵中的美，
其实别有一番风味。

Dear friends,
I sincerely thanks to you all these days.
And I sincerely apologize for being annoying sometimes.
If you dislike all those,
don't worry, they won't come out again. I promise.
Throw those old ideas about me away,
and be ready to accept the new me!
You can abondon the old me but not the new me.
I love you all, sincerely I do!

至于你，朋友，我诚心地祝福你，
也为你感到骄傲，因为你找到了。
记得要好好地看守它。
因为美丽的东西，大家都抢着要！
给你我最大的祝福！=)

Jason's philosophy of life. Temporarily

Good or bad? Right or wrong?
Is it important?
Things just are! They are like that.
Sometimes, you just can't make things right.
Why is it? Because they are meant to be wrong.

I doubted so much about my current situation,
including my future, family, and my own relationship.
However, I finally realized that,
sometimes things just meant to be wrong,
so that you will learn when you are mending them.
It has come to a very long way,
there maybe nothing for you to hold,
but remember you have two hands, and
they are always readily for you,
and why are you finding other people's hand to grab
when you already have both matched hands?
Look inside you, you will see the truth,
and there is always someone lies in you!

Things are hard to be followed sometimes,
but don't let anyone tear your life apart.
Life is about learning and experiencing,
at least that's my thought.
Sometimes you may questioned,
do I have the strength to carry on?
Look, whether you have it or not,
you have to! Just HAVE TO!
Unless you are thinking of doing something stupid,
but then, is it worth that much?
Or is it just you are impulsive when things are new to you?

You don't have to be afraid, and
you don't even need to cast your fear aside.
Running away from it may not be vulnerable,
but facing it may not be a very heart-twisting situation.
Running away will never solve a problem,
but facing it can, this is the key!
You scared of facing the world alone, maybe,
and wondering why there isn't anyone to
reach out a hand for you to hold.
Trust me, you have your own eyes to judge,
when you are ready, there will always be someone waiting ahead.

What will happen in the future?
Does it really matter?
No matter there is a tornado, tsunami, or any worse situation you
are thinking now, it's going to be fine!
Because you will survive! Believe it!
Who on earth in this world doesn't know how to cry?
Everyone knows how to cry their heart out loud!
But who on earth in this world
can actually laugh with their heart?
Don't do something easy, take a tougher task,
and when you realize you success,
you will find out that isn't something unachievable!

Bitterness in life is just another contrast for the sweetness.
When there is not bitter, how do you define sweet?
Just like, when there is no theives,
why do we need police?
So, taste the bitter, and soon, sweetness is there for you.
When you are ready, call upon your faith,
and you will find that, you have grown up,
and L-O-V-E is always there.
Family, friends, lovers.
they always care no matter when, where, what, and how.

I love you guys.
I really do!

A video

Oh well, I know I'm lazy to blog. Haha!
I'm just too busy about my work recently,
about the Halloween, and some mid-terms going on.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3uIf9iQca10&feature=player_embedded
this is a video from youtube,
it's very nice and sentimental.
I hope you guys enjoy it,
it's a chinese video, so, I'm sorry for those can't read chinese lah. XD
Alright, you guys should enjoy it and give some feedbacks!

Here I am

It's so accurate that I was stunned!
Oh well, you guys may don't know what I'm talking. Haha!
Come KL one day, I'll bring you guys go!

It was a marvellous night yet disappointing and saddening.
I admit that
I am the one that keep lying to myself,
I am the one that shut myself down,
I am the one that wanted to cover everything up.
Tonight was like another awakening pill,
but is painful to wake up.

I don't want to trust her,
I kept telling myself that is not worth trusting
as your future is fully grabbed in your own hand.
But everything she said was really matched,
and yes, I have no other choice but to believe.
The only thing is that,
it woke me up and straightened my mind.
Truth, evidence, confession are all in front of me,
what will I choose?
The answer is, I don't know YET.

She said this,
a sword in business is cunning,
a sword in relationships is a deep invisible cut.
Which I don't have many comments about it,
and I am about to go crazy tonight.
My mind iss stucked now AGAIN,
but I hope it will be fine tomorrow.

Recently, I like this song from Coco Lee:
要如何让你明白？
我用尽我的爱。
你应该看看窗外，幸福已离开。

学会了，沉默是金。为什么？
因为沉默可以是最厉害的武器！

I love you all!